things i don't like...

...i don't like starting conversations with my kids "this probably will turn out to be nothing, but..."

...i don't like having conversations with my husband "did he say what i thought he said..."

...i don't like updating this blog with "back on the roller coaster again..."

as you are all aware we had a doctors appt this morning...well it was supposed to be in the morning but as usual the clinic was a few hours behind schedule. it is hard to know exactly where to start...our intent was to go in and try to straighten out some of tim's day to day annoyances. so we started out telling the doctor that tim has been having some serious pain and discomfort when eating and drinking. we originally thought it was just an acid reflux kind of thing but it kept getting worse and things just "burned" when he would swallow. some of you have been with him when he eats and have noticed, but he can usually work through it and get some food and drink down.

this is where it gets kinda weird...the doctor just looked at us funny and pulled out a paper he had carried in with him. he said that it was an ADDENDUM to the PET scan. (an addendum meaning and addition, appendage, attachment, extension, something extra) it was an addendum that he didn't really worry about because 4 weeks prior to today we weren't really complaining about any esophagus problems. (we can't really remember if we weren't complaining or if he just didn't feel it was crucial info at the time because of all the other stuff that was going on).

it said that upon review of the prior PET scan compared to the recent PET scan there were significant changes, including HOT SPOTS on the esophagus. what does this mean??? i guess it could mean one of three things:

1. a viral infection (unlikely because he has been on some of the strongest anti-viral medication for some time now)

2. a yeast infection (so we are starting on anti-yeast medication tonight-for 10-14 days)

3. a lymphoma issue (which he referred to as "could be a player").


i really really used to LOVE roller coasters.

we are still in the processing mode...my mother said that she never prayed for someone to have a yeast infection before but she was willing to give it a shot.

once again we are in the wait and see mode...tim felt kinda crappy tonight but all things considered i guess i do too. we have talked to the kids and our parents and now this blog goes out to who knows where. keep us in your prayers. this could be a simple little yeast infection that will clear up in a week or so...or not. but either way...it is what it is and we will once again take one day at a time and see where it leads us. God has been so faithful to meet all our needs and we have no reason to doubt that He will again.

i hope this made some sense...it has been a long day.

thanks for checking in.

tim and tammy

ps...request was made for my e-mail address: tammydewalt@comcast.net