update...

we are sometimes feeling like we are running in circles and never really getting anywhere. this last week was a very "downer" week to say the least. we haven't really said much to anyone about tim because we still have not seen the doctor and tim doesn't want to play 20 questions with everyone, but here goes anyway:

as you all know tim has been growing these lymphoma tumors in various locations in his body but they have ALWAYS been on his left side (kinda odd). since his second relapse of the lymphoma he has received 3 doses of a chemotherapy called ICE. we are due to go in for the 4th dose as soon as his counts recover...probably on this thursday. (platelets today were back in the 50's). recently he has noticed that the original tumor on his left arm has reappeared and for the very FIRST time he found a tumor on his RIGHT arm.

now as the kids would say...you don't have to be a rocket scientist to know that this is probably NOT a good thing after just having 3 rounds of chemo.

if you all are like us we are FULL of questions...what does this mean? will we still get more ICE? is it bad that the tumor came back? is it worse that the new tumor developed on his right side? how are they going to stop these tumors now? this list just goes on and on and on...

unfortunately we have NO ANSWERS for you today...and probably not tomorrow either...

sorry about that...but we promise that when we know we will let you know.

not much more to say...good days and bad days.

keep praying...especially for WISDOM. we feel that some major decisions are going to have to be made about treatment options and we all need WISDOM...the docs need it and tim and i need it.

pray for tims SPIRITS to stay above water...it has been an emotionally challenging week for the whole family (kids included). the kids are the ones with some of the best questions...we just wish we had some of the answers. sometimes i wonder how they keep going at the pace they go...but then i think it is the best thing for them. we have a very OPEN line of communication with them about the cancer and the treatment options...no secrets. i think when they finally realized that we were not hiding anything it made it easier for them not to worry as much.

they know they can ask us anything they want...about the cancer, about the treatment, about the doctors, about the odds of beating this thing, about death, about life, about quality of life, about prayer, about healing, about anything they want!!! it does get interesting sometimes, but always ends up a good thing. we feel knowledge is important and trust is important and honesty is important.

well, enough rambling for one night...three in bed and two to go.

hope you all have enjoyed this wonderful weather the past few days...and even the rain was enjoyable today because i LOVE thunder storms.

thanks for checking in

keep praying.

tim and tammy