Those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

october 27th

as hard as i tryed to stop this blog and write my farewell entry i just couldn't bring myself to do it before the "dreaded" birthday blog. as many of you know i am a huge fan of the fall and the winter seasons...many of you thought it was just because i LOVE the cold weather but just between you and me i think it all stemmed from the fact that as of OCTOBER 27th each year i was NO LONGER OLDER than tim...he would always catch up to me each fall and i could enjoy a few months of not having to hear about me being a year older than him.

today WE would both be 48 years old...

for him...way too young to be gone
for me...way too young to be a widow

i never was a huge fan of birthdays but tim just loved them!!! he loved his birthday and my birthday and the kids birthdays...he was such a "big kid" when it came to gifts and cakes and candles and all the fun stuff associated with birthdays.

i have to admit i am still not a huge fan of birthdays...and today was kinda a downer day. not that i don't think of him and miss him every single day of my existence but today i found that it was extremely hard to stay upbeat.

ashley has been struggling today also...and after work a very good friend stopped by and had a nice visit with her...thanks EB for listening to that tug on your heart and stopping by the house today. i can't begin to tell you how much it meant to her to see you today. we all deal with our grief differently and for her...a visit from you on her dad's birthday meant the world.

for me the birthday is only the first hurtle...the wedding anniversary is right around the corner.

thanks for checking in

sorry i don't blog as often...this full time working single mom is exhausted.


ps...only appropriate that the first game of the world series would start today.


Blogger Wendy said...


I was thinking of Tim on his birthday. We think of him when his favorite teams are playing on TV.

Love you all!


October 28, 2010 3:29 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey Tammy,

It's been way too long to not talk to you. My fault on that. Why does time have a way of going by and we miss things that we should have done? Simple things like checking in and catching up with dear friends. Just wanted to let you know that your friends on Jonagold Drive have not forgotten about you. I was just thinking of you guys the other day. You are still in my thoughts and prayers and I also still think of Tim often. And I can't believe all of our kids will soon be in college. What happened to the soccer days??? Kevin D.

November 09, 2010 4:43 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wishing you a very Merry Chrstmas and a healthy and Happy New Year!

Dolores D.

December 23, 2010 4:19 PM  

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