more letters

well...i thought things were going smooth trying to get all the paper work done for insurance and stuff but it seems as though almost every day i get a new request for this verification or that clarification. i will be very glad when this part of the process is all over. one day at a time.

megan is cruising along with her college stuff...today she got quite a bit of stuff from penn-state and we were looking over her suggested classes (very exciting but i think it is giving her "senioritis"). today she was filling out more scholorship applications. she has had just about as much paper work as i have had...and she has done great!!! i am very proud of her.

kelsey is getting ready for soccer season to start...official outside practices start march 3rd already. she is still doing indoor field hockey plus a little skiing here and there. keeping busy.

ashley is still recovering from her injury. i think she is doing a bit better but keep her in your prayers. her shoulder is still hurting her some. she is still trying to catch up a bit from all the school she has missed.

i am still working part-time but i have been able to add some extra days to my schedule. the full-time job that i thought i might apply for is "frozen" like so many other jobs out there...so i am very content to just wait it out for a bit. i probably was not quite ready to jump into going full time right away so perhaps it was a blessing that it was frozen. lets just pray that it will "thaw" sometime before the end of the year so i can work full time and get college benefits and be able to pick up medical benefits for the 2010 year. (pepsi is so graciously picking up our family medical insurance for one year-awesome).

this transition from being what i was to what i am has been HUGE. i can't quite explain how it feels. it is weird how you can be so lonely even in a room full of people. it is very hard to describe.

today at work i almost started to cry when i loooked into a microscope and saw a sample that so much reminded me of tim...it was the strangest feeling. i really had to fight to keep back the tears. yesterday i ran into one of his oncology doctors and he said the sweetest thing. he asked me how i was doing and all but then he said he wanted me to know that he read tims obituary and he had NEVER read anything like it before. he said it was beautiful and he was so impressed and was sad that after over three years of working closely with tim there was so much he didn't know about him.

i just have to remember that i need to take one day at a time. i thought that was only advice for while we were going through the illess but turns out to be just as important after the fact.

keep praying.

thanks for checking in

tammy

(wanted to welcome fred to the wonderful world of cyber-space...pappy has gone www)