a weird kind of day...

june 3rd...as some of you may already know today is my birthday. thank you thank you.

as i look back over this last year i can honestly say that this is probably NOT going to be listed as one of my best although i can come up with some positives.

the good the bad and the ugly...

lets start with the bad...the most obvious one would have to be the passing away of the love of my life and father of my children. i look over on my kitchen table and all i can see is what isn't there...the dozen or so roses. i ALWAYS would get flowers on my birthday from tim and i would ALWAYS tell him that i didn't like flowers (maybe that wasn't exactly true but it kinda turned into a joke with the kids...). he was such the romantic and having me for a wife made that very challenging...poor guy.

as we move onto the ugly...the most obvious would have to be the fact that i will spend my next birthday without him and the one after that and the one after that...

but there has been some good this past year...the twins have celebrated their 16th birthday and i am still somewhat sane. as of last nights graduation megan is no longer a high school student. finished up 29th in her class with distinguished scholar status (which is awesome) and a member of the national honor society (which is tough to do in our school district). she will be heading out to penn state in a couple of months...her dream come true. as of tomorrow the twins will no longer be sophomores. i will have two high school juniors and one college freshman. pray...pray hard.

we have an amazing support group that watches out for us...i always tell the kids that i have eyes in the back of my head plus at the school plus the the church plus at their friends...anywhere they go SOMEONE is watching after them. thank you. (kinda freaks out the kids but i am ok with that).

so as you can see...a weird kind of day. i can't dwell on the bad or the ugly...but i also can't seem to only think about the good.

the highlight today will be that my girls are taking me out for supper tonight. looking forward to us all being together (as i suspect those days are coming to an end).

thanks for checking in

tammy