a little disappointed...

YES...today was the day we received the letter from PSU stating the following:

"we were touched by your personal story of loss and financial challenges"

"you and your family are to be admired"

"selecting one recipient from an outstanding pool of applicants was difficult"

"...has chosen another student to receive this years..."

i guess we are all disappointed in the fact that megan was not selelcted but like i said at work the other day...if there is someone out there that has it worse off than us...then they deserve the award. but now i have to wonder if i really meant what i said.

so i took some time tonight to reflect a bit on the whole big picture and this is what i came up with. yes...we are not thrilled with the fact that we were not selected but i also know that i feel a peace about the whole situation. many of us have put a lot of prayer into this scholarship application and for some reason that we may never know it was not meant to be (perhaps the person who got the award will someday find a cure for the swine flu or maybe invent a way to exercise without the use of a treadmill or ellipical).

i wasn't sure how i would react when the letter came...i was home alone and it was addressed to megan so i did what any parent would do...I OPENED IT. but strange to say i didn't really have any negative vibes towards the situation besides feeling a little bad for megan...but i am so sure that she is doing what she should be doing and that we are doing the best that we can do and i know that we are going to be OK.

i read the letter and put in back into the envelope and when meg came home we briefly talked about it and off we went...one to a baseball game and one to a soccer game. case closed (although they did recommend that she send her letter to another possible scholarship sponsored by the american cancer society-which she already started).

so we are back to taking one day at a time and will end up like 90% of the college world...with student loans to pay off.

thanks for all your prayers and concern

thanks for checking in

tammy

(my mother just asked me if i REALLY put the porch light on...wouldn't you love to know)