part #1

for starters...as the previous blog implied...i was a mess last week.

*i am still adjusting to working full time

*i am still adjusting to missing soccer games (because of working full-time)

*i am still adjusting to NOT eating whatever i please whenever i please

*i am still adjusting to missing tim and this funeral just tipped the scales slightly over what i was able to cope with on a daily basis.

*i am still adjusting to some kid issues we are dealing with

*i am still adjusting to having a college student

*i am still adjusting to life as a single "parent"

(and i haven't even started to adjust to me being a single "person" yet)

with all that being said i have slowly started to avoid those things that used to be so near and dear to me...like daily devotions (bible reading) and set-aside daily prayer-time and as those things faded the carbs started creeping in for comfort and the carbs made me tired so the exercise faded and it all became a viscous cycle.

so...what happens when you get so frustrated and you are in the house all alone not having an ounce of hunger but consuming massive qualities of food and all of the sudden you realize that SOMETHING has to be done and it has to be done soon? if you are me...you pray.

so...what happens when you get so frustrated and you are in the house all alone not having an ounce of success in the prayer department...and all of the sudden you realize that SOMETHING has to be done and it has to be done soon? if you are me...you fast.

interesting concept...fasting.

do you know that there are many reason why a person would consider fasting...some are spiritual and some are physical and some (like mine) are a combination of the two.

fasting for health reasons implies the giving up of food in order to DETOX and allow your body to heal itself

fasting for spiritual reasons is not just about giving up food but it is about feeding the spirit...you often hear the terms "fasting" and "prayer" together.

so...the SPUR OF THE MOMENT plan was to fast. period.

that was it...i was upset and i needed to do something so i made a plan...i was going to fast.

i didn't know exactly how i was going to go about it

i didn't know exactly how long i was going to do it

i didn't know exactly if i was going to be able to do it

but i started anyway...it was a THURSDAY afternoon...at some bizarre time like 22 minutes after some afternoon hour. BIG PLAN!!! but i was determined!!!

so i decided i needed rules:

1. no food

2. only water
3. no complaining to GOD

4. no whining to GOD

5. no asking GOD for anything

6. ONLY praise, thanksgiving and worship allowed

7. don't tell anyone what you are doing

8. until further notice...

so here is a quick overview:

i immediately started a full scale water only fast on a thursday afternoon and...

everytime i wanted food i instead offered praise to GOD

everytime i thought about food i instead offered thanksgiving to GOD

everytime i day-dreamed about food i turned my focus to GOD

HE got a LOT of attention in those first few hours

HE got a LOT of attention in those first few days

i would say that we became BUDS...and i mean that in the most respectful and sincere way.

now if you think that taking away all my food and leaving me with gallons and gallons of aquafina water was easy...

and if you think that spending every waking hour talking with GOD with a positive and pleasant and thankful spirit was easy...

then you probably will want to come back tomorrow and see just how EASY it was.

thanks for checking in

tammy