part #2

DETOXIFICATION...not for those with a weak stomach

lets just say that i am so NOT a huge fan of the whole process

(doubtful that anyone out there wants to hear all the gory details of my adventure so i will move on)

just on a side note...does anyone know HOW i can go for days without eating a bite of food and not one person notices BUT when i try to sneak an oreo cookie my kids hear the crinkle of the bag and are all over me like flies on fly paper!?!?!?

HAPPY THOUGHTS...not for those with a weak stomach

lets just say that i am so NOT a huge fan of the whole process

(this i am sure you are wanting to hear about)

first let me remind you that i was the one that came up with this scenario...it was not any sort of punishment or penance from my AP (in fact she didn't have a clue what i was doing until after)

second let me remind you that i was the one that initiated this and i was going to be the one to end it.

third let me remind you that i am known to occasionally be somewhat sarcastic at times...and that lightning storm the other night was really scaring me a tad bit.

ok...thursday afternoon went pretty well (i was still miffed at myself and pretty submissive)

friday i worked all day and other than a co-worker bringing me an entire plate of sweets that i graciously had to turn down i did pretty good...didn't hurt anyone.

friday night was rough...both on the DETOX and the HAPPY THOUGHTS.

i was hungry

i had a headache

i felt like crap

and i was not able to gripe or complain...so i didn't (exactly)

i REALLY REALLY hope that GOD has a sence of humor (i always figured he did since he gave ME and TIM three girls...he must)

for the next couple of days...

*thank you for allowing the makers of ADVIL to be born

*thank you for allowing the makers of TYLENOL to be born

*thank you for not allowing me to actually die during that last stent in the restroom because my children need one parent around.

*thank you for allowing the inventors of flush toilets to be born

*thank you for allowing the inventors of room deodorizers to be born

i think you are getting the picture by now...it started off good then got a bit scary but soon i seemed to enter into this "odd" place where everything seemed to settle down and i was half-way human again.

i would listen to christian music on my IPOD and just chill in my room...many songs took on a new and relative meaning to me. the praise and worship and thanksgiving actually became legitimate and sincere. the DETOX symptoms faded and i actually started to feel pretty good.

i was finding more and more to be thankful for and actually enjoyed spending so much time conversing with GOD>

am i cured from my food addiction? absolutely not

am i cured from having negative thoughts? absolutely not

but i did find that i can live off of a lot less food than i tend to wish to consume and i can be positive and grateful and not always look at the negative side of things.

so...am i glad that i spent 84 hours not eating and spending much time in prayer? absolutely.

(am i anxious to do it again anytime soon? absolutely not)

thanks for checking in

tammy

ps...you really didn't think that i was going to reveal where i hide my emergency "comfort" food did you?? how silly.