my favorite time of the year...

the first day of school...

rejoice with me...

i can have tuna fish sandwich for lunch with out all the "yuk" comments

i can take a 30 minute nap IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY without interruption

i can go for groceries without the phone texting constantly

i can pick something up and it will not re-appear for at least 6 hours

rejoice...

thanks for checking in

tammy

blessings keep coming...

...yes we have had our share of "bad" things happen recently BUT even through all the crappy stuff there is ALWAYS something "good" to share.

awhile back i had a phone call asking me if it was OK to submit "our story" to a car dealership in palmyra that held an annual golf tournament for a family that maybe was having some bad luck or financial difficulty or illness of some sort...or in our case ALL THREE. i said sure...and it turned out that "our story" and "our family" was selected for the golf tournament this year.

here are the details incase there are any di-hard golfers out there who may be interested:

Tammy,

Could you please post the following info in your blog...Thanks!

4 Person Scramble, Shotgun Start

9th Annual Geiger Invitation

ALL PROCEEDS GO TO TIMOTHY S. DEWALT TRUST FUND which is a fund set up for Tim Dewalts daughters.

Where: Fairview Golf Course

When: September 27, 2009

Time: 1pm: Shotgun Start

Cost: $65 per golfer, $260 per team

Includes: Round of golf, Picnic Dinner, Chance to win prizes!!!

Contact Ron Urich @ 838-1353 or 800-222-1973

Ron Urich Email: ronurich@klicklewis.org

Craig Dewalt Email: cad281@gmail.com

MUST REGISTER BY SEPTEMBER 20, 2009

*Make checks payable to: Klick Lewis Inc.

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go lions

tammy

BIG week...

emotionally draining week for the mom...

first off ashley can still use some prayers...we are one week post-fall and she is still having all sorts of issues with her head. a headache that won't quit and lots of nausea and still some vomiting and her taste buds are all screwed up. keep praying for a speedy recovery...she will never be able to start school next week if this headache doesn't let up.

megan has arrived...her dream come true...she is officially a UNIVERSITY PARK PENN STATER!!!!

we got her moved in on saturday and all is well. she started classes today and so far so good.

everyone is asking me how it went for me dropping her off...actually i have to admit it went surprisingly well. i am not sure if it was that my week was so crazy with ashley's injury that it hasn't sunk in yet or if with all that i have be through recently i consider this a GOOD thing.

she has been so excited and anxious to get out there and get started that i guess i am SO HAPPY for her that i forgot to act like all the other parents there!!! (the kids usually like it when i try to blend in with the other normal parents in society...oops)

when i think back to a year ago when tim and i would discuss her wanting to go to to PSU we didn't have a clue how we were going to swing her going to college with all his medical stuff going on. but he would ALWAYS say that she could go wherever she wanted to go and we would somehow work out the details when the time came. he never doubted that things would work out...and although it was not exactly the way either one of us wanted...he was right. this past week i have missed him SO MUCH...think about him SO MUCH...its been a tad bit rough on that front.

the only "inkling" of emotion i had all move-in day was after we left i went to dinner with my dad and he said that he wished tim could have been there to see her on that "freshman move-in day". she was so pumped but trying hard not to show it. my dad said that he knew it was always tims dream to see his kids get off to college...he was so proud of his kids. i said that if tim was there we never would have left...he would have still been there at 10pm making sure she was ok and she had everything she needed!!! he would be wanting to check the dorm locks and meet the RA and find out where all her classes were and locate all the PEPSI vending machines and ask why she picked a co-ed dorm... perhaps in some ways it is a good thing i did this alone.

well...time to share the computer...kelsey keeps pacing past me.

thanks for checking in

go LIONS

tammy

hey there...

i suppose that you all are checking out this site every few hours for the new update...

well...here it is.

we are home (that would be me AND ashley)

as some of you already know ashley was home alone on monday and took a NASTY FALL down the basement stairs. i will not go into all the details but i can tell you that it involved a few teenagers (who did a WONDERFUL JOB in an emergency situation) and a few moms who came to the rescue AND a fire truck full of big burly men, a police officer, two ambulances and a multitude of emergency personnel...

need i say more...

typical day at the dewalts...

nothing is broken but she is pretty banged up.

concussion with a pounding headache that has not let up since the fall and some serious nausea at times.

contussions of the left shoulder with a stretched AC joint (i have no idea what that means)

bruised ribs

messed up left knee that has her on crutches for a while

follow-up with the bone and joint guys

follow-up with the pediatric headache guys

and all this just days before i have to move megan into penn state.

the good news is that nothing was broken and she is going to be fine...

funny part was that we were put into a room on the 7th floor that is now the pediatric ward but it used to be the adult oncology ward...guess who spent about a month in that same room?!?! someone thought that it would bother her that she was in her dad's hospital room but she actually thought it was VERY COOL.

the bad news is that she will probably not be volunteering to do the laundry anymore.

thanks for checking in

tammy

Hello this is Megan.. My mom just wanted me to put a quick update on here.

Ashley fell down the stairs on Monday and hurt herself pretty badly. She's been at Hershey Med for the past few days and my mom is obviously there with her. We don't think she actually broke any bones but she has some bad brusing and contusions and when she fell she hit her head pretty hard, which is why she's still there. She still has some concussion symptoms so the doctors are doing another MRI today to make sure everythings alright before she can come home.

She'll most likely need to do physical therapy on her knee once she gets back and be pretty sore for quite some time, so keep her in your prayers.

Thanks, we'll try and keep you updated.

back and so not rested...

...but i had a wonderful time away.



i told someone that my trip was not only wonderful but also therapeutic...it was a trip out to ohio to see some friends. these friends were not just my good friends but they were OUR good friends which made things a bit emotional for me. spending time with them forced me to deal with some issues that i have not been dealing with here at home very well.



it is doubtful that they know (until now) how many nights out there i cried myself to sleep...just thinking about tim and how much i miss him...but then another day would come and we would all get up and make it a good one. we talked about tim some...it is hard not to include someone that has been such a big part of your life for 21 plus years. we talked about me moving on with life a bit discussing everything from finances to megan going off to college to me looking for full-time work.

we shopped a bit and cooked a bit and laughed a lot...we ate well and talked a lot.

i had wanted to go out for quite some time...but actually being there was kinda weird. having to face all those built up feelings that i have (without really trying to) been keeping inside. on the long ride home i had a lot of time to think...and i do believe that i have been avoiding everyone who were OUR friends or HIS friends and kinda hanging with more of my friends...

there were times that i would feel awkward and avoid situations without even realizing that i was doing it...now that i have had time to think about it...i am a BIG CHICKEN. didn't want to face anything or anyone who might cause me pain.

took me 8 months to realize it...although i do think that most of it was unintentional...

now that i have faced "the friends" and SURVIVED...actually had FUN and enjoyed the visit. shed some tears but had a lot more laughs than tears. maybe it is time to look up some other friends that i may have been avoiding...sorry if that is you!!!

things are kinda crazy now with meg getting ready for school and field hockey season for kelsey but slowly as things settle in...i would love to meet up with some old pals and have dinner or grab some coffee.

who knows...maybe you have been having a rough time wanting to spend time with me too...i could see why...i am kinda nutty at times...plus i am sure the memories of tim are painful for you too. but it isn't so bad after you get started.

thanks for checking in

keep praying

tammy

r and r

after a very very very long time without a "break" from the daily routine i have declared a MINI-MOM VACATION!!!!!

tomorrow i leave town for a little over 72 hours...alone!!!

wish me well...i will update when i return.

thanks for checking in

tammy